I have mapped out the details for several accomplishments. I have the step by step plans laid out. Progress is being made. Patience and flexibility is required. The time to refine is upon me. I have poured myself into identifying, clarifying, searching, planning, consulting to make the accomplishments happen. They are and will happen – within flexible timetables. Something was missing in the focus.
I am self-contained, independent (practicing conscious interdependent), self-directed, achievement oriented, recovering perfectionist, organized, and so forth and so on. Yes, I have and can make things happen. I add variety to my life with the people I connect with and the things I do. However, I am also very practical and that comes back to some of that self-containment.
I want to rejuvenate the delight of seeing the world through the eyes of a child. View things in each moment and with awe and curiosity. I have kept a promise to myself this year and done something different, new or long neglected each month. That has brought various experiences and joy. I want to experience that feeling of bubbling over and intense pleasure of the moment.
So what will it take to achieve exuberance on a greater frequency? Minimize some of the practicality will be necessary — change its parameters. Thus not putting things off because it is rational, logical, and practical to wait and keep the focus. So play, doing things that make me happy and feel good are coming to the top of the agenda. Thus doing things with family, remolding the house, de-cluttering, reading for the fun of it, crafts/arts, walks, and lots more are becoming priorities.
Making sure I have a little bit of all that brings me delight in some capacity NOW. This means, I accept that this is ok, even with it not seeming to be the responsible thing to do. It is responsible to me to live, love, laugh and be exuberant. This fills my cup full and provides the ability to give and create even more. So my goal is exuberance!!